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The way Anastasia found me, or the way I joint to the foundation of club “The Ringing Cedars”

I do not know how to start, where the beginning is.

The first book about Anastasia, which I read, was the fourth book. It was still “hot” because I bought this book in Moscow when it appeared in bookstores in 13th of January in 2000. Since that I had seen the first and the second books but they had not made impression to me, maybe because they were thin little books? (Then and probably still now I like more solid and serious books). I just recall that after I read a book review I thought that it was a fancy story, which helped somebody to make money. It did not arouse my curiosity.

And that is a long story.

After I graduated from school I entered Kaunas Technological University to specialty of complex system calculation and engineer net. If to say more simple it is a specialty of computer nets or internet and other connections.

I studied 1,5 years but it happened that I had to quit my studies. My grandmother in a village died, grandfather was ill and I had to take care of my Native Country Seat. I was born and grew up in Kėdainiai but all summers I spent in a village to my grandparents. I loved village very much and since my childhood my grandparents told me that the country seat will be mine. And it came true. In autumn grandfather died and I lived in a country seat alone. During 2,5 years I graduated from Lančiūnava agriculture school a specialty of a farmer. Before that I knew little about farming. I took 21 ha of grand grandfather’s land but without hard rearward and former capital I was not lucky. I was not happy to use chemistry to defend from weeds, diseases and pests. But I could not do anything because I saw that harvest was poor and I had to sweat very much working with a mattock. After the first year of farming it was clear that I would not manage without chemistry and used it with thick heart but customers needed nice, fine, big vegetables and fruits and were ready to give big money for them, and money was a source of living... At the same time I understood that it would make harm for their and my health because I bought some things in stores too and these who grow up them, they also had to use chemistry. It was difficult to understand why God created the world which is not perfect: if we should not use chemistry we would be more happy. Now I see that I was so naïve at that time but at the same time I understand that the one I am today is not much clever from that one I was yesterday, when I look from perspective of tomorrow.

Once I read about a woman from Panevėžys in newspaper “Žvilgsnis”, who went to India to spiritual sage avatar SATJA SAI BABA. This story told me that he knows answers to all questions. That’s why I decided to write a letter to SAI BABA and to ask what to do with weeds, how to get rid of them without chemistry. I even suggested that they can grow in some particular area but not in a garden.

So I wrote a letter but I did not know the address of SAI BABA and I sent a letter to editorial office of “Žvilgsnis” asking to give the letter to that woman who knows the address and would be able to send it or maybe herself will go to SAI BABA and give it to him.

I would not receive anything from this editorial office. But once I was very surprised to see my letter in a newspaper. The editorial office did not ask my permission and printed it. They behaved themselves very unethical and they lost one of their subscribers.

I did not get any answer and during long time I forgot my question.

Since… thanks to happy coincidence or fatality. It happened 7 years after the publication in “Žvilgsnis”. At that time I was in India to SAI BABA and I want to quote an abstract from my diary of that day. “The 3rd of January in 2000, 1 a.m. I awoke from a dream and understood that I still do not have an answer to the question which I gave to SAI BABA about weeds. I remembered it: how to farm according to will of God without any chemistry? Chemistry is very harmful to earth, if not today so tomorrow it will come back 10 times stronger. To give all the responsibility to God, telling that everything is divine, and chemistry is not an exception; to sacrifice everything to God ant not to conceive affection to any result – I do not think it is fair to pollute environment, sacrificing everything to Him. If I live longer this way when I come back I will feel myself a dissembler. But what should I do? I do not know any other way. That’s why I asked SAI BABA to give a suggestion. In which way I should behave myself to avoid scruples? And maybe it is just a complex of Ardžuna?

I decided that if I appear myself in first rows I will write a letter to SAI BABA.

In the morning I got up at 4 o’clock, I went to first rows and guessed if I am in time until closing. I was. 10 people were after me and lines were closed. I sat down to my favorite side and what you think? – This line was the first.

I sat down in front of the temple. Juozas brought his letter, Algimantas also gave his. I wrote also. SAI BABA went as always and took my letter…”.

In this letter I wrote, “God, an what’s the matter with weed?...”

After 5 days leaving the abbey house of SAI BABA one Russian guy came to me and gave me a peace of wood. I ask which wood it is and he began a story about followers of teacher Badadži, who were looking a place for an abbey in Russia near Omsk, somewhere in a taiga, in a swamp, in some island they found a wood of Chanuman (a king of monkeys worshiped in epic of India). So he brought a dry branch of this tree, cuts it and gives it to everybody as a sacred reliquary. This story did not make an impression to me. But at the end of the story he asked me if I had heard something about Anastasia. I told that I had seen a book about her in a bookstore but I have not read it and I can not tell anything about her. Then he told me to read these books when I have a possibility. I was inquired.

On my way home from India in Moscow I bought the 4th book by Megre. Though I asked a seller to give me the 3rd book (it was cheaper), he gave me the 4th. I noticed his mistake but did not say anything. I thought maybe I was wrong about prices and for me there was no difference to read the 3rd or the 4th.

I came back, read it and I liked it very much and found other books to my friends. I was admired very much and recognized that I could not live in an old way any more that I had to do something. I wondered if Lithuania had a club of readers but found anything. I hanged announcements in esoteric bookstores in Kaunas and Panevėžys where I had been looking for brave people who wanted to create a Space of Love to their children and grandchildren.

A year passed, a few people called, asked how did I do and how many congenial I had and put down a phone when I told that there was no any… I met some people but we did nothing. I tried to find a financial aid and organize an advertising campaign but I failed. I visited Viktoras U. and found out that ideas of Anastasia were important only for me; the world did not need them. There were no people, there was no power. Nobody was going to finance one person for his fancy. I should have faced a reality… and did the things what I could do at that time alone: gather seeds, sow trees, cedars. To tell the truth, the first year I was not lucky with cedars but I did not want to surrender and sowed and grew up them the next spring. I entered the sprout design specialty (I should know how to arrange my place smartly, nicely and usefully).

I forgot the announcements but one day Virgis called me, we met, talked and found more people. One day in the 20th of February of 2002 we gathered in a group, made acquaintance, thought a title to a club, and decided in which way everyone can be useful for the club and the club “The Ringing Cedars” appeared. We found a place for meetings, designed a Lithuanian web site, and put announcements in various places. Before that one congenial tried to gather people together in Vilnius, but he was not a good organizer and he was not lucky. At first people met but everything failed after some time. Probably it should have been this way.

You must need to know the answer about weeds?

The answer about weeds is such… we need to change a way of living, a way of farming and a way we understand agriculture, ecologic farms also do not know the answer to this question but there is a natural way of farming in the world where the question of weeds and chemistry is not important. (If somebody is interested you should look for a book by Fukuoka “Revolution of one straw”.) Also if we live according ideas of Anastasia in our native country seats, the problems of weeds should disappear.

I do not know in which way others live now but I live a real period of dark forces and I feel that just a belief in ideas of Anastasia and hope carries me over this period of dark forces. I believe that I will be carried because I am so eager to see and to live in a beautiful earth full of gardens and without arms and conflicts.  I am going to do what I will be able using my everyday forces but I am not going to stop myself or to turn back. I am a dreamer, probably it stops people I meet, I do not know. Yes, I know a philosophy of dream but it is difficult for me with philosophy of reality. But… once I dreamed to go to India by bicycle to avatar Satja Sai Baba and… I did that, with some little exceptions... Now I dream that around my country seat gardens of other happy people will green, so it is going to be that way, it is just a question of time…